Tag: Xmas
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52and40/37 White Noise
I love the odd day in Glasgow. As familiarity grows, I’m beginning to link the city up with maps, memories, family folklore and reference points in the past, present and future. I like the break from Edinburgh’s tourism too, when I’m off west. Interactions with people and the pavement feel markedly more real and more easily…
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52and40/36 ‘Tis The Season
My mental health’s gone off kilter recently. As a health-conscious veteran of PMDD, postnatal and antenatal depressions, I know when my neurochemistry’s recalibrated in an unhelpful direction. I’m lucky SSRIs work well for me and I feel positive, mainly, about medical interventions. I like my life in full, balanced colour. So, while the palette reloads, I’m taking…
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52and40/13 Staging Interventions
I’m battling to feel Christmassy. The weather’s telling my senses it’s Autumn. The bagels in the cupboard and alarm clock scream that school’s still in. My diary’s saying it’s a few days before my annual crying at the song in The Polar Express which I love but will make the rest of the family roll their eyes…
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52and40/12 Venus in Tweeds
When the bloke I fancied told me he lived on a west coast island and ‘commuted’ to Aberdeen for work, I pictured Father Ted’s Manse and grimaced. ‘How can you bear it?’, I’d asked. ‘The flatness? The wind?’ He looked like I’d spoken in Spaniel. The following week I understood. Sapphire sea in a white sand…
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52and39/51 Back to the Future
I’m feeling festive in fleeting bouts that buzz like wee jingle belled flashbacks, all present and sparkly then, gone. Nonetheless, home is hyggelig at this time of year. Following prelims, my son’s deciding what to do with at least some of his future. My head tells him to go with his heart. His heart says…
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52and39/49 Three Times A Lady
Triple-thinking is (to me); Thinking about something and failing to make a decision. Thinking about the something again then making a decision that’s carried out with rumbling uneasiness. Regretting the decision and thinking about how I should have done it differently. It’s an inefficient cycle I started at a time when high stress collided with an enforced period of time…