52and40/31 On The Fringes

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I loved this year’s Edinburgh Festival & Fringe.  It felt like mine as well as everyone else’s, for the first time.  My annual bout of imposter syndrome somehow didn’t arrive.   As my kids start to think of futures outside the city I’ve grown in mindfulness of what we have while we’re here because, as an accidental rolling stone, the sense that change is doing warm-up stretches is a twinkle in my eye.  The idea that I’ll return one day to the fringe as a tourist, sparking with happy memories, is fuel and shelter.

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52and39/35 Back of the Net

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I’m thinking a LOT about self sabotage.

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I’m thinking about how I’ve elaborately protected myself from failure by subtlely self- sabotaging goals to such an extent that, it seemed, they just weren’t meant to be.

*sigh*

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I guess it’s my age.  I’ll be 39 tomorrow.  If I’m lucky I’m a little under the halfway point in my life.  I have some big dreams to make come true between here and the elegant in repose (with CostCo truffles) death-bed scene.  So I have to be really honest with myself.

What are the blocks?

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52and39/34 Show Me The Monday

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I’ve been trying out listening to classical music after enjoying the dancing fingers of piano playing guests this summer.  I wondered out loud what it was about classical music that makes it so relaxing.  ‘It’s the lack of beat’, answered my husband, ‘it’s arrhythmic’.

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I think there’s a surrender and engagement with classical music when you’re hearing it for the first time; a bit like watching an unreviewed, intriguing performance. 52and39

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Maybe when time’s unmarked by a beat I keep myself uncharacteristically still, so I can mentally lean in a little more.

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Stunning colours and compositions at the Matthew Carey Simos exhibition in Hula Juice Bar, West Bow

52and39/32 Life Is A Cabaret

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Edinburgh put on a great show when two of my favourite people visited last week.  The sun shone and the streets filled with the spiking energy and randomness of another Fringe and Festival starting to breathe, then testing their limbs for flexibility.

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Just as intriguing as all the art, entertainment, touting and commentary in Edinburgh at this time of the year is the normal life of the city, trying to carry on regardless. I’ve decided it’s best viewed as a temporary ballet-comedy of circumstances and endeavours; people watching at its finest.

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