52and39/35 Back of the Net

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I’m thinking a LOT about self sabotage.

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I’m thinking about how I’ve elaborately protected myself from failure by subtlely self- sabotaging goals to such an extent that, it seemed, they just weren’t meant to be.

*sigh*

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I guess it’s my age.  I’ll be 39 tomorrow.  If I’m lucky I’m a little under the halfway point in my life.  I have some big dreams to make come true between here and the elegant in repose (with CostCo truffles) death-bed scene.  So I have to be really honest with myself.

What are the blocks?

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Author: wordathlon

I'm Heather, I'm a writer and I live in Edinburgh. I like laughing, reflecting, getting lost in music, discovering great people, information and places. You can find me on Twitter @betamother or email me at wordathlon@gmail.com

2 thoughts on “52and39/35 Back of the Net”

  1. Most of the kids that I work with that do self-sabotage have had very judgemental parents and/or significant adults in their lives (e.g. teachers).

    The are the sort of people who despise their own weaknesses, focus constantly on risk assessments, instil fear of failure by never telling their children they are good enough (or that they are loved) and seek to pick on the vulnerability of others to make themselves feel powerful – that’s not power that’s tawdry.

    What’s failure but life its-self – go for it.

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    1. Thanks so much for that. I relate very strongly to what you’ve said there, but, bizarrely, I’ve never made that connection before. A real light bulb moment. Your wisdom is much appreciated. 👍🏼👏🏼

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